Memorial website in the memory of your loved one
Tributes and Condolences
Page 2 of 42   Next Pages Next 5 4 3  2 1 Previous   [Total of 825 records]
 
i wish you were here  / Cole (Brother)  Read >>
i wish you were here  / Cole (Brother)
i love you and i miss you. i know how to read now and i sleep in your bed i wish you were here so i can play with you i love you Close
how and why  / Mom (mommy)  Read >>
how and why  / Mom (mommy)

As each day goes the questions of why and how increase more and more.

I sit each night look out at the sky and wonder why? Why would you be the one ? Why would you have to endure such painfear and helplessness?

Why would someone take such a precious child and disregard their life ?

Why would someone try to continue to destroy?

Why would your sisters brotherfather and myself have to go on with such hurtsuch destruction and pain?

I will never be able to answer those questions. Any one who has humanity could never answer those questions.

As time goes on the pain of missing your hugslaughter and just plain peaceful presence hurts that much more.

There have been so many children that and special people that have gone since you and as I hear their storiestalk to their families I think why would such loving people who have so much to offer have given so much to others go and then those who have nothing but destructionhatefulness still walk on this land . They stroll through life with their heads up as they destroy and hurt anything in their waywithout a thought .

Those questions I will never be able to answer either ..

I can answer that no one can ever take away who and what you are. How much of an impact of love you bring to so many.

As time goes on more answers more details come out and more people come back knowing your love is and was so strong that they cannot forget the impact that youhave made and continue to make is si much more and stronger than the impact you felt that horrible day.

One day my son you will be known by the world and touch even more lives your presence lovehumor will hug all that are deserving and knowing you probably those that are not .

You have left so many with such a void -but as you left that void you fill so many with the gift of life by saving them educating them changing laws and having your story told.

They say there are three sides to every story in your case there is one story and that story is of lovecompassion family and knowledge of truth.

Not one day goes by that I dont think of your faceyour hugs your love and why and how ?

Close
love you so much <3  / Jordan Goldberg (sister)  Read >>
love you so much <3  / Jordan Goldberg (sister)
i love you and miss you so much ! more than you will ever know we are so lucky that we were as close as we were cause thats the only way i get through these days... I cant beleive its almost been 4 years since we were together since i saw your smile heard ur voice or knocked on your wall ;-) you are the BEST LITTLE BROTHER A GIRL COULD ASK FOR <3.. can u beleive im gonna be 21 soon! its crazy i wish u were here to come out and party with me. life would be so different if u were here. well bubs i have to go clean for momma .. i love u amd miss u always and forever ever ever .. XOXOXOXOXOXOGE<3 RIP PERFECT ANGEL Close
Short message! <3  / Becca Zollo (friend)  Read >>
Short message! <3  / Becca Zollo (friend)
So the jets beat my New England patriots. Lol. They did well this year Ty. :] So school has been so stressful. I have to do well this semester. So much has been going on lately. You know I hate the fact that like I think I have best friends. Like when I need them the most they’re not there. Or when they say “I’ll always be there for you” but then when you need them they’re nowhere to be found. That’s what I loved about you. No matter what you were here for me. I wish you were here because I could just call you up while you’re at FSU and just tell you everything. Life would be SOOO much easier. Lol. Well I still don’t have my car. But I’ve been saving up money so I can pay the rest of it so I can go visit you again. I miss you so much! I miss visiting you when I just need to break down and cry. Well when I went to Tampa for the football gave verse USF this guy took a picture of my friends and I. well that picture is now on the school flyer for school spirit. How funny is that? I’m famous Ty!! Lol. I’m trying to think of interesting things that have been happening in my life. Lol. Nothing’s coming to mind. lol. OHH!!! So your mommy got me a penguin (my sorority’s mascot) pillow pet. She said that you would get it for me if you were still here with us. And you probably would too. Lol. It’s cute kidish and perfect for me. Lol. I brought it back to my dorm and I honestly cuddle with it every night haha. :] I miss you so much Tyler. I still think about how different life would be with you still here. Well I’m going to go to sleep. Have classes back to back tomorrow. I love you Tyler!!! Here’s one of the song I’ve been listening to. Time passes by so quickly But I guess I thought you'd be here forever I never even had the chance To say goodbye There's so many things to tell you Left unsaid until now Can you hear me when I talk to you Do the words I say ever make it through Can you hear me when I talk to you Cause I'd give anything if I just knew Every night I have the same dream The one where you get to hold me We laugh an' talk until the morning An' then you vanish It always leaves me feeling helpless When I wake up an' you're not there Can you hear me when I talk to you Do you know how much I'd love to be with you Can you hear me when I talk to you Cause I'd give anything if I just knew Living in this world without you I constantly search through my memories Hoping that I find some treasures That I passed over All that I took for granted Means so much now and I won't let it go Can you hear me when I talk to you Cause I never said some things that I meant to Can you hear me when I talk to you Cause I'd give anything if I just knew You know I never said some things that I meant to Can you hear me when I talk to you Cause I'd give anything if I just knew Close
time / Mom (mommy)  Read >>
time / Mom (mommy)

There have been so many entries I have written and for some reason they haven taken or gone through .Meibe there is a reason for it maybe not

As time goes on they say the pain gets better . They say a lot of things . Who are they though ? Have they been through what we have ? Have they experienced burying two children ? Have they watched a family in pain and despair ? have they watched people attempt to wake up each morning and try to display some type of normalcy ? Who are they ?

Do they really know that when a family has been destroyed and broken that there is no way to mend that but to go on with the motions . Do they know when there is so much truth that no one is aware of and so much continued destruction by one that each step is taken with a knife going through them .

Do they know that watching your family hurt in so much pain that is irrepairable and knowing that the only thing you can do is make believe that everything is going to be ok-though you know they know the truth that it is unbearable at times. That knowing that you must go on for the others and give them happiness smiles and laughter because they deserve that is so hard and painful.

How does one go on when they miss the hugs the laughter the closeness of somewhen who was so full of life and love /

Who has the answers to all of this/ No one yet that I have metthough so many believe they do .

How does one believe when they see so many people that are so good and have so much hearthurt so yet those who are sick destructive and have nothing to give to society other than utter pain and destruction get to move on with their lives I guess their sickness allows them to build a world that only they live in . Those sick destructive ones are always the ones who do not seek help do not know when enough is enough and I guess the rest of the world will never be able to understand them .They are too ill to understand . But the truth is the one thing that is concrete that cannot be changed that eventually gets revealed and then others understand the depth of what has happened .And here lies the truth in our story .

As I take my road through each step of every day I know that though [people perceive that we have been strong and moved on .They are only seeing the shell not the guts of who we ar e. I guess the pain has made us strong hard and able to do things that in our lifetime we never thought or ventured that we can do .EVEN THOUGH i WOULD GIVE BACK THE STRENGTH FOR YOUR SMILE YOUR HUGS ANDLAUGHTER MYOUR FUTURE THAT HAS BEEN ROBBED FROM YOU . 

With the power of the stars with the power of love and with the power of goodness I have to believe that one day something has to change where there is so much that needs to be changed

I DO BELIEVE THAT EVENTUALLY IT COMES OUT -BUT TO BE ABGRY IN PAIN ALL OF THE TIME WILL NOT DO ANY GOOD -SO THERE LIES WHAT DRIVES OUR FAMILY -WE WILL GIVE TO WHO EVER NEEDS WE WILL FIGHT FOR WHAT IS RIGHT INCLUDING LIVING WITH SMILES.JUST PLAIN LIVING AND WITH GIVING BACK TO SO MANY WHO CONTINUE TO GIVE TO US .AS OUR SUPPORT GROWS BY SO MANY IN ALL REALMS OF SOCIETY WE WILL CONTINUE TO BE THE PEOPLE WE ARE BROKEN BUT STILL STANDING -AND THAT IS BECAUSE OF THE FIGHT YOU TYLER HAVE GIVEN FOR LIFE FOR HAPPINESS YOU MAY HAVE LOST THAT FIGHT PHYISCALLY-THAT IS ONLY BECAUSE YOU DIDNT HAVE A CHANCE -BUT YOU HAVE NOT LOST THAT FIGHT SPIRTUALLY SOULFULLY BECAUSE WITH THE STRENGTH OF LOVE FAMILY FRIENDS AND WHAT IS THE TRUTH WE WILL CONTINUE TO MAKE SURE THAT THE RIGHT THING IS DONE THAT PEOPLE KNOW . THE MORE WE ARE CHALLENGED THE STRONGER WE WILL BE NOT ANGRIER BECAUSE THEN THEY WOULD HAVE WON -THAT IS NOT WHO YOU ARE NOR WILL WE BE .

WE WILL SAVE LIVES WE WILL KEEP PEOPLE AWARE WE WILL EXPOSE THE TRUTH SO THAT OTHERS WILL NOT BE DESTROYED SO THAT SOCIETY WILL NOT LOSE THE GOOD FOR NO REASON AND THAT YOUR STRENGTH ALONG WITH RIANS WILL GUIDE US THROUGH OUR LIVES TO DO SOMETHING THAT TO GO DOWN A ROAD WE NEVER THOUGHT WE WOULD GO .

BUT MINUTE  WE CRYING IN SIDE FOR YOUR TOUCH YOUR LAUGHTER YOUR JOKES YPUR PEACEFULLNESS YPUR LOVE FOR PEOPLE YOUR TOLERANCE FOR IGNORANCE YOUR COMPASSION AND MOST OF ALL JUST SEEING THAT SMILING FACE AND HEARING THAT VOICE SCREAM MOM -NOT FOR A MINUTE IS MY HEART NOT POURING WITH TEARS FOR WHAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN AND FOR WHAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN ...

aNOTHER CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU THROWING THE DICE TO OPEN YOUR PRESENTS ANOTHER OF SO MUCH -DECEMBER WAS HARD BECAUSE OF RIANS BIRTHDAY NOW EACH DAY IS HARD .

LATELY I SEE YOUR FACE IN FRONT OF ME -I JUST CANT FEEL YOUR ARMS AROUND ME

 

Close
<3 / Becca Zollo (friend)  Read >>
<3 / Becca Zollo (friend)
Hey Ty I keep writing to you but I just never finish them. There's sooo much to say. Well the Tyler Scott Goldberg 5k Run turned out to be a great success. You're mom did such a great job!!! So many people showed up. I was so glad I finally got to go to the run. For once I wasn't injured from a sport and was able to go. :] The shirts this year for the run was a big hit!!! They had your picture on the front and all the sponsors on the back! When I saw the shirts my heart sunk to my stomach and I wanted to cry. Like when I wear the shirt it catches so many eyes. And there's more and more sponsors helping the foundation out! Its incredible! Well in FIVE DAYS its my birthdayyyy!!! Happy birfffday! Hahaha. :] Remember when I picked you up on my birthday from temple with my mom and we kept getting lost. Lol. Then we went to Flanigans for my birthday. Or remember for my birthday in 9th grade you got me the john deer mini locker and the bath basket combo with all the soaps and bubbles and little rock thingys! Haha. You were like I picked this out for you (pointing to the mini locker) and then you told me how Jordan helped you pick which scent smelt good for the bath gift. Lol. Well I haven't had my car in about four months. (It SUCKS! lol.) I wish I could go visit you. I miss being able to do that. Hopefully for break I can go visit you. Like I love going by myself and being able to just breathe and talk to you. And if I end up crying (which I always end up doing) I'm able to do it and not worry about anybody being there. Bla. I keep going on Myspace and reading our old messages we use to send each other back and forth. They're so funny but I always end up crying cause I miss your humor and just everything. You know I get the fact that I'll never be able to literally hug you again but I wish I could. I listen to these songs that remind me of you. And that's how I make myself feel better when I need to. Cause I would go to you when I needed something but now I just listen to these songs and think about you. I started watching a show called Ghost Adventures. I started watching it with my friend Leland and he got me attached to it. They go to haunted places and talk to the dead. Some are good spirits and some are bad. They use these little electronics that let the spirits communicate. And I'm wondering where the heck I can get one of these things! Lol. The only thing is I don't think I would ever leave you alone. Lol. Just being honest here. Haha. If somebody told me I could only say/ask one thing to you... I would have NO CLUE what it would be. But I do know that it would have to do with your family and nothing to do with me. Even though I would want to apologize for not being there when you were in the hospital and would finally want to just be able to say bye... I wouldn't spend that one thing on that. I would want it to be about them cause they're so important to me. It will probably be a long run on sentence (sorry Lee. I know how much you LOVEE run ons AND pronouns! lol) about Britt and how she graduated. Jordan and how she made a goal for herself and isn't giving up. And Cole and how he's so freakin big and how he's so much like you that it scares me. But most of all I would tell you how I'm so proud of your mom. Seriously Tyler she seems happier. She looks like she's not stressing about everything and is finally able to breathe. Like I honestly get so happy when I see her smiling and laughing cause that's what I know you'd want her to do. I know you would get upset if we just sat here and didn't smile laugh and just be happy. I miss you Tyler. And you're always on my mind. I love you. xo. ♥ Becca. Close
I LOVE YOU TYLER  / COLEYCOLE NOSSEN (BROTHER)  Read >>
I LOVE YOU TYLER  / COLEYCOLE NOSSEN (BROTHER)

I`WISH THAT THERE WAS THAT THERE WAS NO SUCH THING OF DYING ONLY FOR BAD PEOPLE I LOVE YOU AND I KNOW THAT YOUR IN MY HEART

 

AND I WROTE THIS ALL BY MYSELF. I KNOW HOW TO READ AND I AM LEARNING HOW TO WRITE. I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO SEE IT.

I LOVE YOU ALOT

Close
I WISH YOU WOULD COME BACK  / Cole Nossen (Baby BROTHER )  Read >>
I WISH YOU WOULD COME BACK  / Cole Nossen (Baby BROTHER )

cole decided he wanted to type to you but when i gave him the keyboard he started crying.. he loves u and always talks about u we miss u so much

OUR BROTHER <3

LOVE

JORDAN & COLEY

YOUR SISTER & BROTHER

Close
WHY? / True Friend (buddy)  Read >>
WHY? / True Friend (buddy)

Hey tyler I stopd by your crash site in markham park yesterday and i wanted to pay my respects and let you know i still think about you and wish you were here with us. I still think about it all the time I cant help but think to myself why did god have to take you from us why not some one who deserved it? Why did it have to be you? why does your mom suffer so much? Why are kids these days so reckless? and though at the moment when times may seem there worst and you dont know why only bad things happen to you i look to the sky for guidance and though times get there darkest theres always a light at the end of the tunnel everything happens for a reason tyler i may never know why u died and thats fine but i get by my days knowing that you didnt die in vain people still talk about you till this day your moms a great person and all the pain and hurt she has i believe pushes her to help more people and do good in this world because all she ever wanted was for you to have a great life and family. the scars will never heal but thats alright its made her the person she is today and i think your lil brother and her are going to be very strong minded real people later in life.

Well thats it Tyler i miss you soo much bro it brakes my heart writing this letter but i did it because i care. LOVE U BRO

Close
time and more time  / Mom (mommy)  Read >>
time and more time  / Mom (mommy)

It has been awhile since I could sit and write .Thought about each day but what's to say that could ever change anything . I am trying to make sense of things but how canone make sense of something that is just so senseless.

The only way   do it is to keep going and screaming out to as many people as I can to make sure that no other family is destroyed the way ours was for no reason. Something so simple and preventable is something so destructable and final. I am trying to find the way for people to understand the finality pain and horror so that they never have to walk in our shoes a walk that is never ending . I know that I won't stop untiln people listen and recogonize they can make a difference recogonize they can be us yet I understand how hard it is for anyone to accept that it could be their sondaughter or other significant family member or friend . That there must be changes that there must be awareness and it can only happen in numbers.

When I really think that there is no hope and that people are moving on leaving you behindsomehow someone comes out and touches our hearts puts you in their hands and reminds me that you are not forgotten that you have made suvh a mark on so many and probably have already saved so many lives I can stand up again and make it through another moment .

It has been a long hard rode for all of us I have watched our family crumble in peices I have watched the happinesshope and smiles wiped away and felt powerless yet I know deep down inside that I have to somehow put some of the pieces back together for our family so that they have a future so they can laugh smile and feel like they do not have rode ahead of them of only sadness and tears .Somehow I have to make their lives fullfilled againalways with the gap of your physical presence but away to handle it so that they can be at peace.

I will never be at peace but if I along with all those who have stood by us can make a difference and give everyone  the chance to have a future to have hope for a happy safe life then that is what will have to be done .

It is like a rollercoaster that at times I get stuck on the top feeling alone and that there is no place to turn the rollercoaster moves again to show me the next step that needs to be done.Someone comes out whenI least expect it and shows their heart and makes this horror a road I can take another step with .

Finding the strength at times takes it's toll but the heart of others pushes me to make thatnext step though it can be lonely at times and at other times I feel like there are so many out there with so much heart and love that I can not dissappoint them and stop. That I have to fight if theya re willing to link on then I cant stop and allow anyone  to be in our shoes .

I just cant think of the phone call the hospital the pain that you endured the anger of loosing your touch your smileyour hugs and your peaceful presence that glued our family togther -that is what takes the strength away that is when the pain is just too unbearable to take another stepbut all of that is also what crumbles our family even more .The reality of this all is so unbelievable so hoorible that not even the best of tear jerking novels could be as brutalas painful as your story .

So your story my son has to be one told no matter how painful it is to me it has to be told or there will be so many more like it .Not as cruel as it continues no one will understand the depth of how your story continues to become even more cruelhurtful but that piece of it is only led by one and will not be allowed to destroy your legacy your ability to touch so many .When strangers come out see your smile feel your love and join with us to do what you had always done love and give to others one person can not and ewill not have the power to do that .

People that surround us because of who you are and bring us strength is what the focus is on .We will change things we will do what needs to be done because it is whats right .And as lonely as I feel at times I know deep inside that there are so many behind us .just sometimes it becomes a fight a battle that keeps me on top of the rollercoaster wanting to scream.

If you my son could fight the fight you fought for your life have the strength that most men in a life time dont display then I can I must continue that strength and dig deep to continue todo whats right .

I watch and listen how your friends have moved on in their lives are thriving laughing and creating a future for thierselves that you always couldnt wait to have it destroys me but I also know that they had right to that future and I have to make surethey can have achance to have it .If that means that at times I have to suffer alone then so be it but at least I now I can sleep at night knowing that somehow another life is saved that someone out there somewhere is laughing becauseyou gave us the strength to help them have that laughter .

I cannot lie it is lonely at times I get angry at times that I have become a person that  I never thought I would be That I have to somehow take a deep breath and bring laughter in thsi house for your family It gets lonely knowing that I can not have teh power to go back in time and  make us whole againand sometimes almost unbearablebut if I dont find the strength then your fight was for nothing .That would benore painfulmore devasting and far more unbearable .

So to all those people who have hung in there with us stood by us and even to the new people I meet who taek you in their hearts thank you youa re the ones that make me understand that this world is filled with hope and many people with heart .That one person cannot destroy the belief that real men real people are full of love heart and care about the future of others

So to all of you I thank you I thank you for giving me the strength each day to take another step.Fot giving met he strength to help my family heal and most importantly for giving me the strength in continuing your courage your love for life and fight as you had when all the odds were againstyou .

So as I say that it is lonely and painfulthere is another path that is filled with love and so many beautiful people .Though it is a contradiction it is life and that is what is the important entity here "life " and how we live it .

Close
hey / Uncle Jeff   Read >>
hey / Uncle Jeff

 

Hi Tyler:

Been awhile since I wrote here but never out of our minds. We think of you everyday as part of our conscience behavior. Nothing is better and never will be for anyone who was close to you. There will always be something and someone missing. A couple of young guys were killed in a car accident yesterday I think you played hockey with one of them. I cannot remember growing up as a teenage with so much death of peers from accidents. It is mind numbing.

Well keep your eyes on the Jets as this is going to be our year unless you screw it up so don't or I will........

Love you kisses

uncle jeff aunt grace keith brett michele landon

Close
College life.  / Becca   Read >>
College life.  / Becca

So I'm in the process of joining a sorority.. I guess they call it "rushing" or "rush week". lol. I have no clue. But it’s pretty cool because Britt has done it before and I'm sort of glad because you meet new people. I explained to a lot of people about the foundation and they said sometimes they help out foundations that mean something really important to their sisters. So I thought it was cool. Sororities aren't like how they are stereotyped... I'm like ehmmm.. I don't party. And they laughed and said that’s a stereotype. So it's exciting. :]


I miss you so much! I feel like here in college I think about you and talk about you more than ever.. I miss you so much Tyler. Well I have to try to get some sleep before I go to class. I love you Ty. xo.

Close
Tyler is the best.  / Beck And Cole (friend and brother )  Read >>
Tyler is the best.  / Beck And Cole (friend and brother )

Cole:
Hi Tyler. I miss you so much. fedgrffghcddrffcddsxdf5r. I wish that you were still here. I went ice skating with DJ and Nick. I had so much fun. I shooted the puck into the goal. (that was word for word. I don't want to change it because he's so cute and it needs to be him talking. lol)

From and love
Cole
.

Beck:
So just now Cole told me to look at his face. And I did but I didn't know what he was talking about. Then he said "do you know why I'm about to cry?" I replied with why?..... He then said "Because I really miss Tyler." I really want to cry right now.

Blahh! Well we've been doing the Dolphins trainning camp and it's been going soooo well. We're in the process of filling up backpacks to send to kids. Your mom tells me everyday how happy and thankful she is for everyone that is supporting the foundation and how the Tyler Scott Goldberg foundation is growing so strong.

Yesterday night I was at the gas station and I was wearing my Dolphins tee that I have to wear for the camp. The guy infront of me in line said he liked my shirt (he ws also wearing a Dolphins shirt). I said thanks but I'm not a fan and that I'm a Cowboy and Patriots fan. lol. Then I told him I'm only wearing it because I'm helping out my best friends foundation that passed away. (He laughed about the fact I'm a Patriot and Cowboys fan). He asked what happened to you and after I explained he pulled out a pen and paper and asked if there was a place he could give a donation. I ran to my car and pulled out a green and white wrist band and told him that the website was on there and to keep them. He smiled and thanked me and said he would give his daughter the other one and wished me goodluck with everything. I think it's so neat that people are so interested and people are willing to help out and make a difference. The guy last night really was interested in it and he was asking about the website and everything. Like I think it was so neat. People care about this foundation and people are interested in everything we do. The Tyler Scott Goldberg foundation is honestly going to make a huge difference in this world. I'm ready to see everything happen and I'm ready to see how many people the foundation help and how many lives we all change and everthing else. It's the GREATEST feeling knowing we're doing this. 

Yesterday before I left for the camp I styled Cole's hair. It was soo funny/cute. I geled it put white gel in it and then sprayed blue n glirtery hair spray in it. He didn't get to show it off at te camp since it was canceled due to rain but we're going to do it all over again today. :]

Everyone is talking about how he looks just like you. I have the picture of you in my car and I put Cole's picture right next to it; hands down he gets his charm from mommy's side.

Well I have to get ready for the camp. I miss you and I love you so much. Keep watching over all of us. We all miss you. Love you Ty.

Miss you lots
Becca.

Close
So much.  / Becca Zollo (Friend)  Read >>
So much.  / Becca Zollo (Friend)

Well I haven't wrote on here in a while. I keep writing stuff on my computer but never put it on here for some reason. Just so much is going on that I'm stressed out. Blaaa.
Well let’s start off with the person I ALWAYS talk about Cole. lol. ohh Mr. Cole. There’s so much to tell you. Well at my graduation dinner (HAHAHAHA) he would NOT leave my side. It was soooo funny!!!! My cousins would come by me and he would just give them the little “this is MYYYYYY Beck” stare. LOL! He’s attached to my current boyfriend Brandon (aka Mr. Alex. Cole calls him that for some reason and we joke that’s just my other boyfriend. lol). It's kind of funny when they are together but at the same time it hurts. Like the way he acts with Brandon... is how he would act with you. And I see it in your mom's eyes sometimes that it kills her that it's not you there with him. And it really does hurt because you would’ve done a GREAT job. Well after dinner I asked Cole if he wanted to send you a balloon. And of course he wanted to. We picked the big graduation cap balloon and went outside. With him on my hip we counted to three and let go of the balloon together. He smiled and said "Look Beck Tyler's dancing with the balloon." Because it was twirling and it seriously looked like someone was like ballroom dancing with it. We watched it until we couldn’t see it anymore. He put his head on my shoulder and was just happy. :]
OHHH! And guess what!? He has ANOTHER new girlfriend. hahaha!!! Your mom and I (look Lee I said it correctly!! brownie points. WOOT WOOT lol) went to pick him up from camp and I surprised him by being there. Well he got in the car and told us about his new girlfriend!!! I was upset because of course I have competition once again lol. I told him I'm going to tell her that she can't have him because he's all mine. haha. He giggled and said no Beckkk! lol. He then told us how he’s taking her out on a date to Boomers. (My favorite part was what your mom said or it was Jordan. I forgot lol.) "Well how are you getting to Boomers." And he gave me that little puppy face with this little cute grin and said "Becca." lol. I told him no way because I want to be his date. lol. He's too cute. But supposedly I'm his sister now. (hahahaha. He's SOOOOO freakin cute!!!!!!) I showed my roommates pictures of him that I have in my wallet and they all fell in love with him. lol.

Well anyways. I just STRONGLY DISLIKE how people say things when they don't know the truth. Like I hate people that fight with me. I would LOVE for them to know and see the things I do. I'm trying to be so nice sometimes and I'm trying right now on here. But honestly they don't see what your mom goes through. And it's not even that... it's truly what she has to DEAL with. Like if they saw what I see they would feel the same way. I honestly don't know how your mom does it. How does she put up with the things that happen? I shouldn't say this but I honestly lost ALL respect when what happened on your birthday. I'm sorry that I'm writing this but if anyone IS reading this... Ty was/IS the one I vent to and I need right now. (Brandon even said he wishes he met you because he knows you were the greatest person alive.) I don’t know what to do anymore. But I do know that it’s seriously so wrong. The things that happen when he comes to the house. Like HONESTLY how old is he? Grow up. He wants to be a smart butt and can NEVER shut his mouth or my favorite when he mumbles under his breath. LMAO!! Like UGHHH! He gets me SOOO mad. He’s worse than a little kid. He’s immature and the things he does and says. Oh and Tyler did you know that after Wednesday its Thursday. And what happens every Thursday? Lol. Honestly is he serious? I know for a FACT you were laughing when that happened. HAHAHA. And I know you LOVED my singing I did. Lol. The stuff he says to Cole.. ughh don’t get me started. I know for a fact that if you were here.. oh gosh. Lol. You wouldn’t let your mom put up with it. ANYWAYS… I’m not going to waist anymore time on something like that. Lol.

Its 6AM and I can’t sleep so I’m writing this to you. The dolphins camp is coming up tomorrow.. well no wait technically today. Lol. It’s the first day. And you know what else comes out today? That movie about the two brothers and the boat Charlie St. Cloud. Every time it comes on I want to cry because of everything and how it ended with us. When Zac Effron talks about how he can’t see his brother anymore because of her. I don’t know. Just blahhh.
I miss you so much Ty. I miss your smile your laugh your random moments and your goofiness. But most of all I miss talking to you and just knowing somebody is there. I love you Tyler and I miss you so much. I wish I could just hug you one last time and see you. One day I will. And I will never leave your side. I’ll bother the heck out of you until you get sick of me! Haha. Well be good and make sure you watch over all of us. I love you Tyler. xo.

Close
harder and harder  / Mom (mom)  Read >>
harder and harder  / Mom (mom)

It has taken me many attempts to write throughout so many events celebrations activities and moments-just could not do it .

As time goes on people say that time heals -that time helps one become stronger I find that time makes me question more hurt more and become more frustrated with the meaning of goodness the significance of who we are and what karma really means .

Time has not healed has not created strength nor belief in goodness -time has just gone by with all those moments events and celebrations that my son was not able to attend to share to have a complete family though we were always missing one -Rian . now there is 2 and every one suffers mostly everyone has changed .

I attempt to find the answers to make sense out of things but then when I see the best of the best human beings who have so much to offer to life to society to others and have lived by the golden word of treat those the way you would like to be treated get destroyed then there are those that I assume we call human beings-not sure what other species they would fall into slither by in life with their only contribution to society to hurt to destroy like a demolition truck any one and every one that they touch . I would find the goodness if they at least acknowledged like an acholic that they have an illness and need help but I guess those are the sickest the ones that will not acknowledge and live in their own reality -truly believe their reality -and hurt destroy damage any one or thing in their way .

How does one believe when this exists . I guess we believe because of all the kind and loving people that surround us and help us take each step each moment of the day . Meibe that is what it is about .

I have learned throughout this voyage of destructionpain and hurt that there is so much to be done here so much to be changed and I guess it is my path to take .

Companies must think before they advertise companies must care and put people's safety first and not play politics with lives until it touches one of theirs . We all know no one is out of the line of being me and my family Why wait why not do something and know that you have made a difference in lives and just do what is right not politically correctwhat a better world this would be .

We try to teach our children to give means happiness any one can take but to give is what it is all about . Even if it is a smile a good morning letting someone go first -those small moments mean soemthing and I know that Tyler lived his life that way to make pwople laugh to try to keep peace and maybe that is why he is so loved and embeddded in so any hearts .

I guess I now knwo that my path in life is just beginnning and it will eb a long roadand at many times very painful -but my other children need to be happy and fullfilled and continue to rise to the occassion of strength and love .To know that we must make a difference .

So the pain the heartache to hold TYler again will never ever go away to hear his laugh see his smile -and to know how much he wanted to live will always be there .But we have to make sur ethat no toher valuable life is lost no other family is destroyed and constatntly fighting to survive and make a difference .

I love all of you who have surrounded us supported us and knows the importance of a quest . You are what helps us take each step . I am so proud of my Britt for standing strong finishing her masters and attempting to make her life path to help save people and make others accountable -All of my children have risen above and not allowed anyoen to knock them down though they have watched their mother torn into pieces -I thank goodness for their strength and coutrage and I know that it is all of you and my family that has helped us .

There is so much more to come so much more exposur e so much more of the strory and so much more lessons and change ...We have a long road but we will be heard with all of your voices behind us .

Watch out Danielle Steele -you couldnt ever dream up a story that is non-fiction like this .

With all of my families heart -we thank you all for your lovesupport and strength .

Close
My Brother.  / Brittany Goldberg (Sister)  Read >>
My Brother.  / Brittany Goldberg (Sister)
Well God only knows how we have gotten to this day because well I have no clue. There's so much that has gone on but so little compared to everything else that has gone on. As I come to the close of my college career you would be starting yours. I would be leaving you footprints to walk in and a bar to reach - even though we all know you would far surpass it without opening a book. Lately I've been finding myself replaying the news clips hospital visits conversations and horrible memories and I don't know why that is and I wish they would stop. It's hard everyday but for some reason it's getting tougher and tougher to go on to the next day without constantly wondering "WTF happened" and "why". But what else am I supposed to do? Those questions will always be in my head and theres just no way around it. Close
look at the fountain  / Uncle Jeff   Read >>
look at the fountain  / Uncle Jeff

This is to all of you lucky and privaleged to be accepted and attending FSU. It is a great school with an amazing college experiance that awaits you.

To those going to Gaydor ville (not that there is anything wrong with it) sorry.

Go the fountain at the main entrance of campus and while facing it with the school in front at about 5 oclock in row one you will find a brick with Tylers name. He is there with you in heart and spirit. Touch it feel it and let him become part of your day.

Always remember him and hold th elove in your heart

Uncle Jeff

Close
Can't Believe It.  / Jana Arnold (friend)  Read >>
Can't Believe It.  / Jana Arnold (friend)
Tyler.
I don't even know what to say right now.
I know you weren't meant to be there but the moment I sat down at my graduation....
tears came to my eyes. I just...thought of you so suddenly about how you should be 18 graduating going off to college....I guess it was overpowering.
Then I hear that they didn't give a moment for you at CB's graduation.
I'm so infuriated!
It was on my friend Amanda's status...and you know what? Something made me snap.
It's hard to make me snap. Pretty difficult I think.
People were commenting (2 people specifically) about how A DEAD PERSON WHO DID NOT COME CLOSE TO FINISHING HIGH SCHOOL SHOULD NOT BE HONORED. ESPECIALLY SINCE "NOT EVERYONE KNOWS HIM."
EXCUSE ME?
I blew a gasket.
Heck I blew a cruise ship.
I tried getting them to see what they were saying was so wrong. In the end I lost patience. I can't deal with people that just don't care.
I dunno. It makes me wonder what you would've done.
Probably handled it WAY better than I did.
I mean we weren't best friends we only saw each other at normal and hebrew school. And even though we weren't as tight nit as I wish we could've been your loss kills me.
So how can they be so unaffected by it?
I just read Jordan's previous post on the facebook page. I knew all that stuff would happen but still reading it made me cry.
The worst part?
You wanted to go to Florida State.
I'm going to Florida State.
I know you should be there with me.
I'll think of you everyday there.
I have orientation there tomorrow actually.
I hope you'll be there in spirit.

So I visited Weston but got there too late for your birthday. I was hoping to visit you but I still didn't get there.
It's been 3 years and it's still hard to bring myself to visit.
I know I'll break down no matter when it is that I visit.
We'll be back in Juli.
I'm hoping it's the first thing I do.
Miss you Ty.
Rest in peace.
<3 Close
It's been a while since I last wrote here...  / Michelle   Read >>
It's been a while since I last wrote here...  / Michelle
In fact if I remember correctly I talked about freshman year in Latin class and that friend who had a big crush on you. Silly things really. It's weird I didn't know you very long yet I think about you a lot. Last year right around the date that marked your passing away my boss lost her son in an motor cycle accident. He was the same age you were when he died. I kept thinking about you. I kept thinking about your family. Her loss reflected theirs. I can't even begin the imagine the pain. She came back to work on what would of been your 17th birthday. She couldn't come back for whole month. I was beginning to think she would never would be back. I wouldn't have blamed her. I never met her son but as she counted my till I offered my condolences and couldn't help but break into tears. You could see the pain in her eyes. She was never ever the same. How could she be?

As days pass I can't help but think of you. You may not be physically present with us as we continue our lives but you are in hearts in our minds. You're always there never forgotten. I could never forget. I won't ever forget.

I did end up moving to California like I said I would in my last post here. As I sat listening to my graduations speeches I thought of you and how you won't ever get that experience. The girl next to me kept complaining about how stupid the whole procedure was. How she just wanted to "bail" and go eat. She cussed and did her best to make the night unbearable. Luckily my friend switched her seats but I could still hear her yammering away. I kept thinking how much she was taking for granted. She was sincerely beginning to tick me off but I did my best to push her to the back of my mind. It was a good night. I graduated that night and I guess since you were in my thoughts I'd like to think you graduated with me.

I'll try to check this site more often. I'm sure you can imagine it's a little hard. It's doesn't help that I'm an over sensitive goober but I think you're worth it.

Bye Tyler.
I know everyone misses you.
Close
OUR GREATEST LOSS  / Grandma ROSEN (GRANDPARENTS)  Read >>
OUR GREATEST LOSS  / Grandma ROSEN (GRANDPARENTS)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SWEET GRANDSON. cant believe you would have been l8 and graduating. the hurt doesnt stop or get easi;er.  you are always in our hearts and minds day and night. love you.... love you...... Close
Page 2 of 42   Next Pages Next 5 4 3  2 1 Previous   [Total of 825 records]
Bring the memories home by publishing your online memorial as a genuine hardcover keepsake